HIPPOFLAVINNN---

3:31PM - dsfjsd

my mom dared me to swallow a spoonfull of really small beads for a pack of ciggarettes today.
hahah.
and i did it.



anyways, gettin lucky is in less then two weeks!
im exciteddd.
me and jade are making our outfits.
i cant wait to see certain people :]


oh yeah ANDDDD, i have my job back in like a week!
im excited for that too.

5:27PM - my update.

basically all i do now a days is get drunk.
seriously, i need to find a new hobby haha.
im gonna start going to explorer soon hopefully, i gotta go turn in my application, i really need to get back in school.





ohh anddd nix bought me a presale for gettin lucky, i havent been to a rave since blackout, so this will be fun.
everyone better be there :]

3:46PM - weird

i feel like im going crazy.
like im not even kidding.
i think all the drugs have caught up to me because i dont understand the simplest things, and i just feel so stupid now a days.
and it drives me nuts, and other people nuts.
and just like.. everything feels so unreal.
like i dont even know how to explain it.
i freak myself out sometimes cause i start thinking about things like how did we get here?
how did any of this happen?
like you cant explain ANY OF IT.
no matter what.
there are so many different possibilities it could be.
and then i dunno.. i scare myself when i do it because i feel so unreal.
like i havent even been here all these years.
everything feels like a dream or something.
is it just me or does anyone else think about those kinds of things too?
im just going crazy.
and all i am is a big moody bitch anymore because i feel like nothing really matter anymore i guess.

4:56PM - yurtle and new cell phone #

we have a turtle now.
named yurtle, lol.
two of the scorpians died, so we only have two.
one spider died cause i dropped it and it internally bled to death, it was my favorite one too :(
but we got a new one.
but, we got 3 more snakes.
they got me one.
its a cornsnake.
it is sooo pretty.
its only like 2 weeks old though.
and we got a pitbull!!!
its my friend rich's pitbull, cause he went to jail for a couple months, so we;re watching it.
and im guessing we're gonna keep him at our house even when he gets out of jail.
because the dog cant stay at his moms house anymore.
i feel so safe now again with him there.
but anyways, not much is new.
im always fucking busy though it pisses me off!
i have no time to sleep cause every day when i get home from work wayne and matt are there cause they live with me now basically, and we hangout all night so i get barely any sleep.
but its fun.
but i gotta go to the petstore now and buy some stuff for the snakes!

oh i got a cell phone so call me!!
360 204 0879

2:31PM - some more critters

add two more new empire scorpians to the collection
omg they're so freaky!
those are the like BIG black ones.
with BIG claws,
BIG stinger,
and BIG sharp like razor teeth.
they are soo scary.
i actually held one though.
i dunno why they just scare the shit out of me.
like the little scorpians, i play with those all the time, they dont scare me at all, and they are waaaay more poinsenous then the empire ones.
it doesnt make any sense at all but yeah.
the empire ones are just so scary looking.
and wayne is getting way to comfortable with them.
he's not even using gloves to pick them up anymore.
god, i seriously wish i could upload pictures right now so i could show everyone.
he was like holding them by the stinger in his teeth and like letting them crawl on his face and he had one chill on his hat on his head for like the whole night.
he is fucking crazy.

3:58PM - 4 turantulas, 2 scorpians, and 1 ball python

ok so wayne and matt have been practically LIVING with me, no joke.
they are always at my house.
and like a few weeks ago they brought over a truantula, because they couldnt keep it anywhere else cause wayne got kicked out of his house or whatever and blahblahblah.
anywaysss, that was all cool and stuff and i come home from work this friday and guess what i see, 3 new turantulas, 2 new scorpians, a ball python, and a big fishtank for when they buy fish in a couple days, just imagine how weird and creepy and cool all at the same time that is.
there are 4 turantulas 2 scorpians and a snake IN MY HOME.
and soon to be fish.
we went from zero pets, to like 7!
with more coming!
and im supposed to be getting a pitbull in like a couple weeks too.
it was a big fucking surprise.

anywaysss, matt actually got the balls to pick up sid vicious, one of the turantulas, the biggest one, and held it for a while and then IIIII HELD IT!
I HELD A TURANTULA!
i held a fucking turantula.
can you believe that.
it was so scary.
i was soo scared to do it.
but after i did it, it was soo fucking cool.
and i wanted to do it again, lol.
and then we picked up the scorpians and stuff.
and they're really cool too.
and then we tried picking up harriette the second biggest turantula, and it was all fine and shit, and it kept like sticking its fangs out while she was on matt hand, matt was soo scared, and she started like getting all mad and shit for some reason and started like running on his arm and then i guess she almost bit matt like he felt her fangs on his finger so he like flung her off and she landed on the cement downstairs and started running around everywhere and we caught her and like she broke her leg and stuff we think.
and the other two turantulas, they will NEVER ever be held, they are way to dangerous.
like when we open the cage, they try and jump out.
and they have big fucking fangs.
it would not be good to get bit by any of them.
and we definately arent taking chances with the other two.



BUT ANYWAYS, ITS FUCKING CRAZY.
AND I STILL CANT BELIEVE I HELD A TURANTULA.

besides all that, i havent been up to like anything, except drinking, smoking pot, and doing alot of coke.
which is weird.

2:22PM - new peircing

i got my tounge peirced last night.
my friend terry did it, he's like a professional peircer and tattoo person, so i get all the free peircings and tattoos i want now :]

but ive been wanting my tounge peirced foreverrrr, just to see what its like you know, andi ts really cool, i love it.

except all i can eat is mashed potatoes because its hard to eat anything else.
cause my tounge was like reallyyy swollen this morning when i woke up cause we peirced it with a 12 guage cause thats all he had and i wanted it done right then lol so its my fault.

but im fine with that cause i love mashed potatoes :]

3:53PM - such a waste of days.

god.
ok, so now i work monday through friday 4:30am till about 4,5, or 6:00pm.
EVERYDAY
monday through friday.
and i was thinking about it.
and i am wasting my days!
sure i get to party on the weekend with my money.
but STILL.
im used to going out EVERYDAY and doing SOMETHING.
and now i just sit there at this house and babysit all day and clean and sleep and watch tv.
i just feel like im wasting soo much of my life doing this job.
i dont know why its just really bugging me.
like people still come over every night once i get home
and we hangout and do whatever all night.
but still i waste the whole DAY!!
i dont know why its bugging me so bad, but it really is.
im not used to this.
maybe if i got paid mroe i wouldnt feel like im wasting so much of my life.
anyway who wants to hangout this weekend

4:57PM

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There are: 15 people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name?

4:02PM - my weekend= people got arrested, went camping, got really drunk, rolled a car.

so,

friday dani, jb,alex, and josh came to port orchard and randomly picked me upgot hella stoned,sat in a park to hangout for a while, cops come, josh gets arrested.

so we went camping for a few days, first day the boys left for a couple hours, me and dani walk around the camping area and meet all our ''neighbors'', end up getting drunk as fuck with an old mexican, and then some people from bremerton had a keg and some pot so we hung out with them for a bit too, this mexican was just giving us beer after beer after ciggarette, ect. boys come back, we get a little more drunk, blah blah blah.



SUNDAY NIGHT,
we hangout blah blah blah. decide to drive into town while we're waiting for the mexican to get back. we entered spillman, then all of a sudden lose control of the car, crash into the embankment, and roll the car. it was such a rush, and i have to admit it was really fun. but that doesnt mean i ever wanna do it again. thank god for me wearing my seatbelt, other wise id be so much worse off. as soon as i saw that we were about to crash i braced myself, that probably helped a lot too. then as soon as we were upside down everyone was just kinda in shock. first thing i did was put out the ciggarette that was in my hand, out on the roof of the car cause it was the closest thing lol.then i had to try and get my seatbelt off, i was upside down so this was really hard, cause all my weight was on the seatbelt. then JB says that the car was startingh to cave in!! so now i was panicing i got my seatbelt off, tried looking for the door handle, but couldnt find it (it was like 10:00 at night at least, so it was really dark) and so thank god JB doesnt have a window on my side, so i pushed a hole through the plastic window and pull myself out. no one got really hurt, just a lot of scratches and bruises, and our bodys hurt. my arms like out of place and i have bruises all over my arms and legs, and a bunch of cuts from the glass.

im still in so much shock, right where i was sitting, the roof is all caved in, and the whole windsheild is fucked. you cant really even see out of it. but anyways, people came and flipped it back over, we rolled it to the campfight, next morning put new oil in, IT ACTUALLY STILL RUNS. only one door opens you would definately get pulled over in a instant though cause of all the damage, but we drove it back to danis cause it was only a couple miles, and so i was basically stranded there, till i found out that there were buses there. and so i got home last night.

and THEN i get home, and find out all this shit happened that i totally missed and im SO PISSED. i could have gone on a roadtrip to idaho with someone that it would have been SO FUN with. and im so pissed at myself for not staying home.

i dont think i ever wanna go camping agian.

1:00PM - the KKK

what i learned about mississippi.
[ill have pictures soon


--the KKK used to be really big there.
--there's hardly any brown dirt there, its mostly red clay.
--the gulf of mexico is the body of water its next to.
which was really weird when i found out i was just in the gulf of mexico lol.
--lovebugs are ANNOYING! they connect to each other and fly around and fuck all day, and they're EVERYWHERE
--it's really hot and humid.
--they have humungous casinos that are really pretty.
--they have pretty palm trees
--theres lots of destruction still from huricane katrina, and it made me really sad to see it
--they have armidillos there! they're REALLY cute and my new favorite animal they also have alligators.
--most of the people have a hick accent even if they dont look like a hick which is really funny
--there's lots of black people there.
--the black people have their own little neighborhoods,
--everyones really nice and polite, i didnt get one dirty look from anyone.
--strangers wave at each other and say hi ALOT.
--the streets get flooded really easily and fast.
--ciggarettes are only $3.23 for marlboros
--gas is only $2.23 at the moment
--theres really cute geckos that change colors to their surroundings theyre really cute
--their homes are REALLY cheap, like a nice big brick house with marble countertops and like nice hardwood floors and a pool and stuff is like only $200,000



ill add more later, i was just really bored and cant think of anything else.

11:30AM - im back im back im backkk

in washington :]
everybody call me.
and hangout with me.
and get drunk with me.. now!

7:48PM - mississippi, day 12

today was really nice.
basically just swam in the pool all day.
ill be home friday night!
sooo excited.
almost here.
i cant wait for the cold weather :]

8:06PM - mississippi, day 11

tonight was really fun.
earlier today we went to the pecan house and i bought a mini pecan pie to bring back to my dad.
and then we went to walmart and stuff and i bought some more postcards.
and then tonightttt,
wow,
i havent belly laughed that hard since the day i left to get on the airplane, when me and my mom were hanging out right before i got picked up.
but anyways, tonight, we went out to eat at this all you can eat buffet and OMG good food, i felt like such a pig but i could not stop eating lol it was so yummy, everything you can think of from octopus, to pizza. and then we stopped at one of those machine things were you can put quarters in and get a little prize or whatever and we got some fake teeth, and oh my god haha, me and my aunts and cousin had way too much fun with those, everyone was laughing so hard.
i took pictures so once i get home, you'll be able to see it was hilarious.
and then we got home and swam around in the pool and stuff, and played with the fake teeth some more lol.
i can swim underwater now, and do a handstand underwater.
over all today was a REALLY good day.

5:22PM - mississippi, day 10

today we went to the mall.
i got a cute shirt.
and i got the say anything cd.
i finally saw some cute people today!
they all hide at the mall
and for the first time since ive been here, someone commented on my peircing, not a SINGLE person has since ive been here except that one guy today at the mall, and like in washington, no matter where i go someone says something about it, its just so weird how the people are here. they done stare or give you dirty looks or anything, its just soo different.
my grandma made me really upset today.
with some stuff
i hate having to hold back tears, but i really didnt wanna start crying.

7:51PM - mississippi, day 9

sooo today.
lets see.
didnt do much
had a big BBQ
ashley and her husband or boyfriend whoever he is and their baby leave tonight.
and tomarrow we're going to the mall and to the beach.
EXCITED.
like all this week is planned out
so this week will go by really fast thank god.
no more sitting around the house bored.
bunch of fun stuff to do now.
and i found out when i get home my plane leaves friday and ill get home that night and ill be in port orchard at my house around 11:00-12:00 at night.

yaaaay.

2:59PM - mississippi, day 8

so today ashley and her husband and baby got here from florida.
reallyyy early
and we've just all been hanging out and talking and stuff.
nothing much.
played in the pool alot today.
and.. thats about it.
i cant wait till i get home, im gonna get SO drunk, god im dyinggg to get drunk.
thats my #1 thing on the list to do when i get home.

10:22PM - mississippi, day 7

so today we swam in the pool alot.
just got home from picking up michelle from the the airport.
ashley and her baby and boyfriend are coming down here for the weekend from florida tomarrow morning.
so theres gonna be alottt of people here this weekend.
and its gonna start being HOT here.
im already hella tan too.
im gonna be black when i get back.

8:00PM - mississippi, day 6

i got woken up today by my little cousin asking me to go swimming with her and shes just so cute i had to get up and swim with her.
so i did that.
then we went to the fair, rode some rides and went to the petting zoo THEY HAVE COWS HERE THAT HAVE HUMPS LIKE CAMELS!!
and they have reallllly big balls.
its sooo weird i took a pic so when i get home i can put it online.
so i kinda got a picture of what the people are like here a little more.
they are SO hick-ish.
everyone had a hick accent hahah.
but ive seen alot more gangsters, and i saw a biggg fat hot topic goth girl, and there were some kinda like ''emo'' kids.
and then i heard they're voices and they werent cute anymore haha.
i hate labeling people, but its the easiest way i guess.
so today was pretty fun :]

2:56PM - mississippi, day 5

so todays just another boring day.
no more rain though!
so basically just been swimming in the pool.
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